Miss u sis
It’s weird how life goes on and time flies by and you’re not here
We fell asleep in the same bed for years
Trading back scratches and ghost stories and future dreams
Me kicking you to the other side of the bed because you’re literally a sweaty little space heater
But also cuddling you close
When was the last time we had that life? Did we realize it would never happen again?
Or were we too excited to finally push through the soil and sprout?
Not realizing we already had and thought they were weeds
I never imagined having to live life without my sister
You’re breathing on earth, but we’re in different orbits
You’re here, and you’re 1000 miles away
You’re here in the sun rays that peak through blinds a certain way
You’re here in the goofy joke or meme or movie
But your voice is something I have to think hard to conjure
When did it stop coming so easily?
And when did our everyday talks stop being every day?
We grew up never considering it wouldn’t be together
You were the one constant I believed could never fade
You’d always be here, following my lead, looking up to me
We grew up together but didn’t grow up together
Your life and mine took such different roads
Yet we’re still the same people we were
Two highways starting from the same patch of earth – will they ever remerge?
Can we still grow old together? Die on the same day as old ladies like we planned?
Life keeps happening, and I wish these memories made were with you, too
Even if it’s just grocery store runs and cooking dinner
Watching the tv as the dim morning light filters in
Taking a walk down the street and swinging at the park
Taking pictures just because
Can a childhood of closeness outlive the yawning scarcity of adulthood?
Is there a reality where we can be mundane again?
Can you come back home one day?
I just miss my sissy.
